By Beth on Thursday, June 22, 2000 - 04:50 am:

It has rained and rained. Now that there is a new front here I am in pain. Every joint in my left side hurts. It hurts to type this. But I have to cry on someone's shoulders. I have burdened my children enough today. I have maxed out my dose of pain meds, took my NSAIDS, and applied Ben Gay. It still hurts. I held off the drugs until I couldn't take it and my 8 year old made me take them. I cried. I cried. I cried. I cried infront of my children(couldn't take it any more). I can count the times I have cried infront of my kids on 2 hands(8 years of pain, I think that is pretty D&^% good). I am trying so hard to not be depressed. If not for being able to come here and get this off my chest I might be worse off. I am YELLING at my kids. I have no patience! Please will me patients.
That was last night and this is today.

I am seriously thinking about calling my Doc today. Shoulder is doing lots of popping and cracking. These things ussually go away over night. I feel so Broke. There is no other word for it, I am falling apart. Give me some vibes please. I am going to try and finish my sweet rolls today( they are overnight yeast dough). Glad I have a nurse for Brit.

I needed to get that off my chest.

By Gretchen (Gretchen) on Thursday, June 22, 2000 - 11:31 am:

Dear Beth,
Hang in their. Be very careful with the pain meds.Please call your doctor and let them know how bad you are. Perhaps they can change them to something more effective.

Sometimes it is easy to forget what we took and when we took it last. Espically when you hurt so much it is hard to think. A friend of mine acidentally over dosed a few months ago. Her children(ages 3 and 5) miss her very much.

You are doing a great job and so is daughter. I don't know what I would do without my boys. A big hug to both of you.
I hope your sweet rolls came out great. you've made my mouth water

Gretchen

By Beth on Thursday, June 22, 2000 - 03:20 pm:

I am glad to say that I went to the Doc. I had to see the nurse practitioner. She diagnosied it as tendonitis in my shoulder and I have added a muscle relaxer(I was already on this but didn't know it would help) and Prednisone. If this treatment doesn't help I am to go in and they may have to shoot it with cortizone! Don't know if that is such a good idea. The shoulder already feels better though.

Hugs, rolls turned out great! I love to bake. Takes my mind off of the pain.

Beth

By pamela.meyer on Friday, June 30, 2000 - 08:43 pm:

I can relate about the severe pain. After the last round of surgeries and infections I thought I would never have a good day, but finally I have. It took a lot of work between my physician and me, and finally out of desperation this had turned my life around.
I had an intrathecal morphine pump implanted - which delivers a very small dose of continuous morphine. (This eliminates the peaks/valleys of drug levels in the blood, associated with oral meds or pain shots.- which allows the pain to "come back". Then the pain gets so severe that the next pill can't do the trick.) In addition to the morphine pump I also, out of desperation, tried magnetic therapy, and deep muscle massage for the severe muscle spasms. After just a few weeks, I felt better than I have in many years. I am now active, have a busy work/personal life, etc. It is imperative that I continue to do all three things. The only oral medication I take is 2 muscle relaxers at bed time. I have had no episodes of vomiting due to the pain in over a year!